Another Month (September)

Yet another month has passed.  It's strange that even after something happens to totally alter your life and world view how everything just keeps going on.  Karen's headstone is now installed (it was done September 8th).  I think it looks good though tonight was the first time my parents had seen it in person.

James and Rebecca continue to be kids; having fun, getting into things and keeping me humble.  It can be a little frustrating to have them 'play' music when I attempt to practice on the piano but they are just too cute not to laugh at.  The weather is getting a little cooler and it's getting dark much sooner so their outdoor time is becoming more limited.  Walks up a nearby road have been good for my knee and letting me get out to spend some time with them.

(James with a style all his own.)

(James on the swing set!)

I went to a dance in the middle of September.  Unfortunately, my knee wasn't yet up to any serious dancing, or any dancing for that matter.  I tried for about 15 seconds and it quickly let me know I was pushing beyond its limits.  Rather than risk overdoing it I, uncharacteristically, exercised some caution and talked for most of the night.  Socializing is getting easier for me though I still don't feel totally comfortable.  Maybe I never will.  Somehow I don't think anyone else is totally comfortable either.  That's some comfort knowing most of us are in the same boat.  It's just something I will have to work on!

There are many things that continue to amaze me about this experience.  Probably the biggest is how resilient kids are.  Prior to this I was so worried about how scarred they would.  In the end they have adjusted far better than me.  James and Rebecca still ask to see mommy pictures.  My phone is full of videos and pictures of her so I can snuggle with them in a chair or on the couch while they see their mom.  I don't know if it's the best thing for them (or me for that matter) but it lets me spend time with them and see them smile!

(Becca telling stories.  I have no idea what she was talking about.)

(James giving Becca a shoulder ride.)

We'll see what October brings.  Karen enjoyed dressing up for Halloween not to mention giving out candy and spending time with the kids.  This year they may actually be old enough to go trick or treating before bed time.

I'm grateful for all of the support that I continue to get from everyone.  Thank you!

Braden